sometimes...

sometimes I really don't like my hair. Like today for instance...I was washing it and proceeded to twist it and at the time it just felt like the last thing in the world that I wanted to do. You have to be in the right frame of mind to really do your hair. I was thinking of some upsetting things.I knew this all along but I really realized that one the way to your own dreams you really can't depend on any else. Without trying to put anyone on blast I basically feel I waited for this person to do X so I could do Y when I just should have gone ahead and did my thing in the begginning. When we wait for others or cater to others to fulfill something that we want for ourselve, there is a 50/50 chance things will not work out n our favor. And that also goes back to my need to micro and macro plan everything in my life. This event or event that should have taken place was not in "my plan" so it seems to throw everything off for me. So here it is: I am not going to wait or depend on others to chase and fufill my own goals. And what they want to do is thier business.