When the going gets tough

I am trying to be positive, when so many things around give me a reason to do otherwise. We lost our last two games. I feel like I am not a good coach and a leader. I am feeling so unsure of myself and my coaching ablilities. I am trying not to take things so personally, but it is hard. I am also trying not to make excuses for why I am the way I am. I like coaching, but times like these make it difficult. It is so easy to like coaching when we are winning but when we are not, I struggle. And I think a big part of that has to do with pride. I don't think I am going to coach next year and not because of the last couple days. I just feel like my coaching abilities have plateaued (sp?) and there are so many things I need to learn about coaching. And the honest truth is, I don't have the deep desire to go out there and learn. For example, a parent came up to me and said there is a big high school volleyball game of two teams in the area that is going on tomorrow night. And frankly, that does not interest me. I would rather be at home with my husband, reading, writing or anything else. I do love volleyball, but I think it is starting to take a backseat to other things and I am ok with that. But the fact of the matter is, I need to remind myself daily who I am. I am not a teacher, or a coach or a wife. I am not a writer or a runner- but I do these things. I am a child of God and I will never be happy or feel comfortable until I can define myself by those terms and nothing else.